PANCARAGAM BANYAK RAGAM

Bissmillah,

malam ni aku xnak buat ape2, macam semalam juga..aku dah agak lost dlam arus pemodenan yg berkembang maju.. macam mane nak ikut sejajar dengan perkembangan otakku yg kecil ini.

baring atas tilam empuk yg menguning ini, dengan meja laptopku yg dibina khas untuk kegunaan baring. diserta kan dengan air yg cukup dan kudap2an bagi mengisi selingan nafas panjang malam ku ini..

ok,mood xok...xnak la melayan penyakit ini nanti semakin melarat jadi sedih pulak ttbe kan, tp td dah call mak dan ayah..borak2.. soalan yg pasti diujarkan oleh mereka "balik xminggu ini?", "ada duit lg x?",.. jawapan aku mmg tetap universal aje... "urm,xtahu la..ngah kata nk balik .kalo dia balik nk tumpang juga".,, "duit ada lg,ni masih lg bernafas dan bernyawa dengan izinnye" ok yg belakang2 tu ak tambah je...

ok. nk start tgok cite yg baru amik dari miol, aka room8 aku sem lepas dan skrg dia ada sini sbb kolej kuo dah seminggu xde air..what derrr, kesian kot dak2 kuo dan kolej yg sama waktu dengan nyer..ok la der gua nk melayan mata dulu..daaa

KEKUATAN DALAMAN

Bismillah,

semenjak 4tahun belajar di sini, banyak tempat yang belum aku terokai contohnya hutan simpan ukm, ukm kampus kl dan cheras.

so disebabkan badan aku kurang sihat dan aktif last week,aku pun pergi ke pusat kesihatan atau nama pendekknya p.k, ni first time datang atas alasan urusan bukan teman sesiapa cm sem 2 dulu.. so ak amik no giliran cm biasa sebagai pesakit lama, means that pesakit yang sudah ada rawatan sebelum ini..tup2 akak kaunter tuh pggil aku suh isi maklumat peribadi sbb xde lagi maklumat.

Eh, aku rasa dah ada buat rawatan before ini di unnit kecemasan, sbb kes accident yg xsengaja tuh. tp akak tu kata dah lama sgt, sem 3 kot rasanye..so aku pun akur dan isi borang seperti yang di arahkan.

ok,agak lama menunggu panggilan masuk, sbb mostly m.a( bukan doctor kot) yg cuti, almaklumla sdang cuti semesta kan.. ting2 no giliran aku naik dan aku melangkah masuk ke bilik no.5 tertera nama pemeriksa itu india lelaki. xkisah la aku bukan racist pun nak memilih2 bagai.

masuk2 je, say hi dan m.a tuh tnye aku sakit ape., "erm2...saya kurang rasa sihat la" aku sendiri sihat actly cuma badan rasa lemah gitu je..lagipun aku xpernah masuk p.k, org kata baik amik je vitamin2 di p.k free...xyah beli di farmasi2

aku cakap la yg badan lemah, xde selera makan ..lapar pun makan skit,kurang tidur,emosi terganggu..so aku suh m.a tuh cek nadi and tekanan darah aku...prappp bunyi kain tuh dibalut ke lengan kiri aku, terrrrrrring...semakin kemas lilitannye, dan aku jeling2 ke alat tuh tgok denyutan nadi la,tertera nombor2 yg aku xtahu ape rasionalnye, aku normal ke, sakit ke..

m.a tuh cakap "ok,cun cantik je tekanan dan jantung kamu". wahh aku ingat kan ape la keputusannye, pastu dia cakap kamu ni stress kot, memang terbukti la yg aku ni stress wei, final year student gitu...dia kata kalo ada masalah try la talk to someone who really doesnt related to it, maksudnye kalo la ada masalah dengan  A, pastu ko mengadu dengan si A, mmg xla kan..so kalo aku mengadu pada si B yg xde kaitan masalah dgn aku, its better.. tp kalo ada masalah dan bagi mengatasi masalah tu haruslah di selesaikan face to face dengan si A, doesnt need another man.

aku pun iye2 kan saje.. pastu aku balas dengan spontan je la, tp semua org kan ada masalah sir, xmenjadi beban ke pada org tuh nak dengar bebelan org lain pulak..hehehe3 soalan bodoh aku. dia kata mmg la tp cari la org yg boleh or sudi dengar pada kite, try la share masalah, mungkin org fikir kalo kite ada masalah dan share pada org itu makssudnye kite lemah, tidak semestinya pada pandangan psychology kite semenarnya kuat dan berani untuk memberitahu ape rasa dalam hati kite. bukan semua org berani seperti itu..


ok, melaut dah aku ni, perut lapar..harap ada yang sudi nak belanja, #doakan dirini dapat keputusan cemerlang esok result keluar#

Kepuasan

Bissmillah,

kepuasan nafsu mmg xpernah cukup kerana fitrahnye sentiasa bertentangan dangan kebaikan.(FULLSTOP)
ak dah xtahu la knp dengan diri ini, bnyk sgt bertentangan dengan fitrah hidup. Ya Allah jgn lah sampai ak kufur nikmat-MU, jauhilah diriku ini dari kemurkaan-MU.

xpandaila nk menulis sebenarnye, tp rasa sgt2 nk menulis.. sbb ak xpandai bercerita. so ak ada lg cara dengan menulis..tp ak rasa cm xsampai je,

Ah, bukan la nk bagi semua org tahu apa aku ni, ape ak buat..tp tp tp argggggg. mengucap berzikir wahai insan.

THE SAME BUT DIFFERENT

Bismillah,

same thing but different, what can i do? huhh if the same thing you do on fyrp on previous student rp.. some one will say it good,so its easy for me.. but other one will think what is the porpose i doing the same thing,no improvement than the previous one. what the different? why i'm repeat it ?

actually my tittle is the same process with different particle. i'm using the smallest nano particle size on this process, and the previous one used the powder form particle, cohesive powder. urm,so because of my particle it quite expensive and using about 5kg of it. i using the same as the previous one ...


IT's the same..la, no different at all.. what my sv will think bout it..i'm so afrid to meet and discuss with her. but i should be.must have it.. bear my self.pray to Allah S.W.T to give me strength stand facing all those small matter.

i'm still designing shirt for our department..soooo messy with me, dont know how to design it..this is what have done..

miss tupai, any ideas please..dont know at all..

What is On My Mind

Bismillah,

Do we like so much facebook, twitter or so watever sosial medium. why we spending on scroll down to update friends status, pages, tweeted ?.
including my self doing what other peoples do. I wonder what so special about those websites (i dont care my grammatic errors)  hahaha..

We have many friends list/followers, but still make me feel like alone, haha tiru(ones of my friend) always say this sarcastic words "Forever Alone". Do him actually alone,so that other people keep attraction on him or actually have many friends to read that status(apa yg aku cuba sampaikan) .

By the way, tomorror evening is my last exam paper, Process System engineering PSE. i'm still not read anyting, really my soul not here.. I wonder why this is happened ..0ooo,haaa because during last sem breaks on internship, i was stayed here for 10 weeks. so that was my nightmare experience doing intern on that bu*&*^t company..dont want to split out.

ouh,suddenly feel that i'm gonna miss moment my college, student life because this year is my last part of 8 part on undergraduate of engineering school. Tappppp . i'm gonna start my lab experiment during this semesta break...ouhhh my, i want to back home, spend time at home, although i knew that i always bored not doing anything, no friend to hang out, no lepaking, no money(YUPP THE MAIN POINT), BUT i love it becaouse i still have a happy family that support me on what ever i do.

i miss you mum, dad, specially mums cook.. even, simple serve of dinner with salted fish eat together with hot rice, uhmmm . nothing can stop my malaysian tongue flavor.bla bla ba

ok, need to be read those lecture notes with clean empty notes,hahah ok,

LIFE BY DESIGN

LIFE BY DESIGN

NEW YEAR CELEBRATION

Bismillah,

This is my first time celebrate new year, after went to night market for dinner with miol (roomate), fizi asking again bout going to ambank concert at putrajaya presint 3.. So, since he has planned before, i willing to join them together with faris by fizi's car.

light traffic congestion into presint 14 because mybe everyone want to came to the concert. Actually, i was not feeling well and had headache. What do i observe from this crowded people all round putrajaya,bangi also serdang gather for this grand event was;

1) i dont really understand why, makcik2 that was older women n pakcik2 ini sanggup stayed there dengan noisy sound from huge stage speakers performances. my heart like going to poped out from my chest..huh serious!!

2) why new parents bring along their underages childrens. new baby with stroller, 5-10 y/o kids... there should be home prepare mentally for new school opening seasons la babee...ayoo., no wonder how childhood growth them.

3)dont know how to describe the tenagers there, so much social between mens and womens, huh stop, u know much it right.

4)every rally, although it is legal or illegal rally will makes rubbish polution.. seroiusly,yup there are illegal rally bout "TURUN " and this typical concert of new year also will make mess of rubbish.. but how they manage to sponsor Alam flora company after the rally season. they should to make sure the environment keep clean.

 

ok, back to the concert i went here, the fireworks was awesomeeeee, first time watch closed live with my naked eye within 8 minutes... after that contd with concert by sweet charity, amy search, ella and also noah hujan. i not typical person who remember those songs n the sounds make my headache really2 worse but i keep suffer in silence. Ok la, have a moment as memory in my life, xla loser kan..